from then…. till now.

its been months since i have written anything meaningful. this site used to be a safe place where i could vent my anger and frustrations… and frankly… i haven’t had anything to be angry about.
the past six months or so have been amazing for me.
i feel genuinely happy.
my life is good.

let me give you a rundown on everything that has been happening.

on april 26th at 12:26am i met the most amazing person.
we met in a rather unconventional way… that is to say… we met online.

i cant describe the feelings i had when i first laid eyes on her.
she was beautiful.
she was the cheerleader in high school that you dreamed about.
she was perfection in the silence of a moment of purity.
she was all of my hopes and dreams, still, before me.
she was Melissa.
and in the back of my mind i knew, she was out of my league, and at a moments notice she would turn around… leave, and never look back.

our first date was nerve wrecking. i knew that i couldn’t fuck this up… everything had to be perfect.
and in making everything perfect i completely fucked everything up.

i had never been so nervous.
i forgot my age.
i forgot my name.
i forgot where i was from.
i fuddled through the answer to every question she asked me at dinner.
i knew this would be a one time thing.

we went to corbitts and talked for a few hours.
we talked about life. love. her marriage. her daughter.
we talked about work and school… dreams, goals.
and as we talked i noticed that everyone in the bar was looking in our direction…
i got paranoid.
is something on my shirt? do i have food in my teeth? why is everyone staring at us?
and i realized… they were staring at her.
i just happened to be with the most attractive woman in the bar… and she had everyone’s attention.
that’s when things got a little better.
because i realized that all of her attention was on me.
she seemed genuinely curious about my life.
she asked questions.
she laughed at my stories.
we talked for hours…
and then she said…
“take me to your house… i want to see it.”

HOLY SHIT IM GOING TO FUCK A MARRIED CHICK!!!! A HOT FUCKING MARRIED CHICK WHO IS MARRIED AND HOT!

that turned out to not be the case. you see, Melissa has these things that i just wasn’t used to.
they are called ‘morals’.

when we got back to my house Melissa decided to spend about 20 minutes telling me how i should decorate it.
she is an interior decorator at heart it seems.

it was cute…. in a strange sort of way.

it was getting late and i knew the night would be coming to an end soon… but neither of us wanted it to. so we got in the truck and drove to the lake…

we sat in this boat launch parking lot for awhile and talked… i finally got up the nerve to bring her closer to me
i said:
“you should slide over here”

yeah i know…. it wasn’t my smoothest moment.
sorry… i just wasn’t on my pimp game that night.

but then she said: “god i was wondering if you were ever going to say that!”

the sky was filled with bolts of lightning… the truck windows were fogging up… and we had our first kiss.

it was poetry.
under the stars, lightning flashing, water pouring down, it was perfect, i could swear i saw lights flashing before my eyes…. blue lights… behind us…
oh fuck its the cops.

that’s right…
i was kissing the most beautiful girl i had ever met… and oconee counties finest decided that it would be the perfect time to find out why the hell we were sitting in a park at 3am.

i went over to the officer and explained what was going on… and expressed my disapproval of her timing. she apologized and asked to see our ID’s
as i walked back with Melissa’s ID all i could think was “if this chick is wanted for drug trafficking or something i am really going to be irritated”.

in the end everything was fine… the officer apologized and left us alone for the rest of the night.
the sun was coming up as i dropped Melissa off.
i remember thinking the whole ride home that Vince Vaughn says i shouldn’t call her for three days…

so i decided to wait…

three horrible days.
and then she called me the next afternoon.

i remember thinking that i could never have another night like that.
nothing could be that perfect ever again.
but every day since then i have been proven wrong.
each time i see her is like the first time all over again.
and from then…. till now… i can say:
im in love.