fragile

OK kid so here is the deal….
a little over a week ago you started vomiting; your mother and i weren’t too concerned because it wasn’t a constant thing, once every few feeding you would vomit everything back up. but then… it became something more. after a few days it got to a point where you would throw up everything you were fed.
we got scared…
we made an appointment for you to see your doctor… she told us we shouldn’t worry, it was probably just reflux and it would go away.

it didn’t go away.
so yesterday we took you to the emergency room.
Dr. Swaverly looked after you. she has sort of been a family doctor… it seems like any time your mother sister or i have to go to the E.R. we are seen by Dr. Swaverly.
it didn’t take long for the doctor to make a diagnosis, she feared that you had pyloric stenosis and she scheduled an ultrasound to confirm the diagnosis.
today we brought you to Greenville hospital and had the diagnosis confirmed…
now… let me tell you what pyloric stenosis is

your stomach has a muscle that connects it to your small intestine, and that muscle has become narrow… so the doctor has to go in and split the muscles.
everyone i have spoken to has said that this is a simple surgery… the surgeon that is doing it does about one a day. they say not to worry.

we are still worried.

as soon as we got to the hospital the nurses came to give you an iv and drain whatever fluid you had in your stomach…. this took almost an hour.
apparently you don’t have defined veins….

because of that i would not suggest heroin.

they had to stick you about 7 times in various places on your arms and legs… until finally the nurse supervisor came in and gave you an iv in your head.
they literally put a rubber-band around your skull and then found a vein.

are you curious about what you look like?

i can honestly say that sitting through that was the hardest thing i have ever done… knowing that you were in pain, you didn’t understand why, and i could do absolutely nothing about it.

since then all you have really done is cry. you haven’t eaten in almost 24 hours… and we cant feed you. you cry because you are hungry… and we cant do anything about it… eventually you tire yourself out and fall asleep for a little while.

you are crying again… so I’m going to go try and calm you.
your surgery is set for 9am tomorrow…. good luck little guy.