This will be my final post for brickhouseministry.com, so I want to make it good.

Let me explain my decision, and the actions that led me to it.
Some of you may remember my last post, for those of you that haven’t, it was mainly about the things in my life that are keeping me distant from God, which eventually led into a rather large rant about sex before marriage where I wrote some of the most personal things I have ever written about.

Here is a couple of quotes from that post

#1
“I come from a pretty screwed up past… I spent the majority of my life making the absolute worst decisions, and it amazes me that I am in the position that I am in today. 10 years ago I would have never dreamed that I would be able to freely write these kinds of things on a church website for all of our youth to read.”

#2
“I have always had low self esteem, I have never felt accepted, and I get nervous every Wednesday because I’m afraid I will say the wrong thing to someone, or upset someone. I don’t know about you but sometimes when I am alone… a voice pops in my head and says: “hey screw up… what you are doing at concord? Do you even remember all the things you have done in the past? You can’t do anything great for God. Not with your past, not with the way you are.”

I am beginning to realize that #1 is completely false… and #2 is completely true.

A couple of people had problems with two of the words I used in the post, the words were dubbed ‘street-talk’ and deemed ‘not appropriate for a church website’
Bill said the post was fine but those words needed to be changed.

I am stubborn, I didn’t, and still don’t feel that I needed to change those two words.
I feel that if God led me to write them, then they should stay there.
But having talked it over with some of my friends I decided that since I am not an official voice of the church, my opinions should not be expressed on a church website.
I have since moved the post over to my personal blog, and all other posts I write will be posted there.

I was thinking the other day about Martin Luther.
*editors note… this is not Martin Luther King jr…. read a book some time.

A long long time ago in a land far far away, a many named Martin Luther became fed up with the practices of his church, so he wrote a note pointing out 99 things that was wrong with the church and pinned the note to the church door.

This upset allot of people… some people rebelled against him. They felt that the current church was fine and that nothing needed to be changed. They called him a rebel, and if im not mistaken they ran him out of town.
Allot of people these days hate people who act like Martin Luther. They don’t want anyone to rock the boat… they don’t think anything within the church needs to change, they don’t think things should be made modern.
What they fail to realize is if Martin Luther hadn’t said to the church “these things need to change” then we would all still be Catholic.

Jesus said in Mark 8:38: “If any man is ashamed of me and my words in this adulterous and sinful generation, the son of man will be ashamed of him when he comes in his father’s glory with the holy angels”

I have often wondered what makes older people fear change. I have come to realize that people still belive that what was good for them is good enough for anyone else.
The other day I asked my friend James to come to church with me, he said no.
He said that church was:
boring
not relevant to his life

and for the most part I agree that most churches are like that. I see my friends get passionate about Christ, I sit around the dinner table and talk to them about the wonderful things God is doing in their lives and the lives of those around them, then I go to church and we take an hour long nap together… wake up and talk about Christ some more.

In Luke 7:31 Jesus asked “to what shall I compare this generation?”
then he said
“they are like children sitting in the marketplace playing their flutes for us, yet we will not hear their songs.”

Think that verse may be more relevant today than it has ever been. I sit back and watch the youth of concord grow in Christ, and do amazing things out of love for him. I see them witnessing, helping less fortunate people, I hear them praising God in their words and their actions, then I see them quieted down.
“you are to loud”
“you cant say that in church”
“you cant wear that to church”
And my personal favorite
“you cant do that at church”

I listened to wendy Wednesday say “wait until marriage before you have sex, that includes oral sex!” and I thought to myself ‘RIGHT ON!’ because I had never ever ever heard ANYONE speak out against oral sex in ANY church I have EVER been to, even though it is more prevalent to this generation than it has ever been.

About a year ago Time magazine did a survey, the survey said that teens today view oral sex in the same way the teens in my generatin viewed ‘making out’. Basically they all thought it didn’t mean much, it was just something that you do when you are dating.

I have christen teen friends who say, “yeah im a virgin, but I have oral sex… it dosent count” THEN WHY IS IT CALLED oral SEX!?!?!

I agree that we need to be mindfull of what we say. We need to know where the lines are between Christianity and the world… and we must be sure we don’t cross them. However we also need to be sure that we aren’t watering down a message to appease the masses. I made it a point to watch Mtv today…. This is important because I dispise Mtv.
I watched it to count something… over the course of 3 hours oral sex was mentioned or implied nine times.
Hold up… I want to make sure you got that…
9 times
NINE!
3 hours is 180 minutes… there are 4 minutes of commercials every 11 minutes which leaves 132 minutes of show (roughly)
132 divided by 9 = 14.6
That’s a mention of oral sex every 14.6 minutes of Mtv.

Don’t think this is just on Mtv… tonights Law and Order svu was about a girl getting killed after she had oral sex with someone.

Yet for some reason we aren’t allowed to talk about it.

A pastor once asked me this, “if we embrace the way the world speaks, then how will anyone be able to tell us as Christians apart from people of the world?”

I was tired… I couldn’t think… I said “I dunno” I should have said: the same way you recognize that Jay Bakker is a Christian, that Lacey Mosley is a Christian. That Mel Gibson (although slightly whacked out) is a Christian.
If you were to meet Dr. Cox at Chic-fil-a one day, and you had never met him before, and didn’t know he was a pastor, you would still know he loves the lord. Why? Because of his actions, because of the way he carries himself… because Gods love radiates from you and others can just tell there is something wonderful going on in your life.
Actions speak louder than words.

Ugh… im going off on another rant… forgive me.

The point of this post is to say this.
I am not an official voice of the church, and therefore will not be posting on the brickhouse website any longer