Apr. 26, 2008 OkCupid.com
RE:hi
Apr. 26, 2008 – 12:01am
burnstyle,

BabyBlueX just wooed you! Uncanny.

Maybe you should check out her profile.

-OKCupid

——-

You can only send 3 woos a day, so each one is very, very special. If BabyBlueX appeals to you send them a short reply.

If you prefer NEVER to receive woos, this can be arranged on your settings page

Apr. 26, 2008 – 12:26am
sorry i dont have any pics up yet, but i’d love to chat sometime

Apr. 26, 2008 – 11:06pm
sure… id love to chat
you do know however that okc warns people about users who have no photos “No picture found. Be suspicious.” :P

also when there is no picture people tend to assume the worst…

i dont however… because it really makes no diffrence to me.

May 1, 2008 – 2:28am
You can see pics of me on myspace
www.myspace.com/baileysmama8705

the only pics of me on there are from my wedding and thats why i felt they would be inappropriate for a dating site. my profile is private so you’ll have to send a friend request. i log in everyday so i’ll be sure to approve you.
talk to you later.

May 1, 2008 – 6:54pm

i added you.

May 1, 2008 – 11:28pm
so i have to ask… why is a gorgeous married woman on okcupid?

May 2, 2008 – 12:21am
I left my husband 2 months ago because he’s…alot of things. Made a rash decision to marry him. Biggest mistake of my life. I want to meet someone who can treat me right.

May 2, 2008 – 6:14pm
well meeting someone shouldnt be a problem… there are plenty of single guys prowling the internet for a single woman.
finding a guy who can ‘treat you right’ may be more of a challenge :)
so do you live in easley or lavonia?
i dont really know much about either place… i worked in lavonia a couple of times while i was living in fairplay… once at a resteraunt called dad’s and once i managed a…. well… i worked at another place too

i just drive through easley on occasion, when work sends me out there.

so what do you do for a living?

May 3, 2008 – 2:31am
I actually live in Lavonia right now. I only lived in Easley while I was with my husband. I am between jobs right now, when I left Easley it made the commute impossible. I hated to give up the damn good money though. I was a sales manager for the biggest Aaron’s store in the entire company. Very demanding. I interviewed last week at a title loan company in toccoa. I should be hearing from them monday.
So you left out the part about the other place you worked..whats up with that? Come on you can tell me. And what do you do for a living now? I take it you travel sometimes.
Anyway I hope I can catch you online sometime so we can chat. i’d like to learn more about you.

May 3, 2008 – 6:13pm
well… i managed the strip club in lavonia for about a year. after that i worked at dads… then did some webdesign work for a church here in anderson.
now i work as a meter tech for duke energy. i do have to travel sometimes… but not often.

from what i have seen… it looks hard to find good work in lavonia, i hope everything works out for you.

by the way..
my messenger names are
yahoo= escape_grace
aim= xburnstylex

feel free to message me anytime :)

May 5, 2008 – 2:29am
Hey how about adding me to your favorites so we can chat?
Love to talk to you.

May, 11 2008 Myspace.com

May 11, 2008
hey there
melissa roscoe says
To: George
Hey whats up? I’m about to go to bed just thought I would drop by and tell you good night. Can’t wait to see you Tuesday.

May 12, 2008

i can’t sleep

melissa roscoe says
To: George
ok this sucks really bad but I have really tried to go to sleep and its not working. i hope you are resting well. my mom wants me to go look at a house for us tomorrow. the ad sounds pretty good. so i’ll go check it out. i’ll be stuck taking a long ass nap in the morning after i take bailey to daycare. tonight bailey dumped ALOT of water on the floor while she was in the bathtub,, i had to get the steam cleaner out to clean up all the water. Maybe i shouldn’t let her have cups in the bath tub anymore. That was probably the most excting thing that went on around here today. I’ll probably play some more movie trivia things on myspace and head back to bed. my stomach is growling, so I am going to go fix me a sandwich or something. I am really looking forward to you coming to see me tuesday. we’ll find something to do i’m sure. maybe give you the grand tour of lavonia ha ha. i can’t believe i wasnt able to go to sleep, alot on my mind i guess. having trouble shutting my mind off. anyway i hope to talk to you tomorrow night sometime.
melissa

May 14, 2008

hey

melissa roscoe says
To: George
I am finally awake from my nap and its almost 3 in the afternoon. kinda fun to think about what i was doing 12 hours ago. i hope you got enough sleep last night. i also hope you are having a good day at work. All the weeds and the grass in the front yard was magically cut when i woke up a few mintutes ago. I’m confused. I didnt hear the dog barking or a lawn mower, and I KNOW it wasnt like that when i got home this morning. Maybe it was the landscaping fairy. Or I bet my mom hired someone to come do it since our weedeater is messed up. If she would’ve told me someone was coming by I would’ve brought the dog in. Oh well its done now. That was really sweet of you to call and make sure I didn’t get lost. I had a lot of things going through my mind on the drive home. Good things so don’t worry. Well I guess I need to get off my ass and do something. Oh yeah I forgot to tell you this: last night I left Bailey alone in the bath tub, and this time, instead of dumping water out of the tub, she dragged by laundry basket into the water. I walked in there and clolthes were soaking wet and a half empty basket floating in the tub. I luaghed my ass off, but if she had been older, she would’ve been in SOOOOO much trouble. Pretty funny. Well I’m gonna hop off here. I can’t wait to see you again tomorrow night. Let me know when you get home and me and Bailey will come see you…
melissa

 

May 14, 2008

whats up with that?

melissa roscoe says
To: George
Anyway, whats with that “whore” comment on your mood status? I know you said you of course werent referring to me, but what were you thinking about to make that come to mind?
Yes, I’m nosy. But I have to know everything about you and your thoughts. You are never allowed to keep anything to yourself. That would be wrong.
Ha ha gotcha, I would never tell you to be like that. I respect your privscy.
But you are my bitch and I own you.
Again, just kidding.
So see its like after 5 and its very unusual for my mom not to be home by now. She called a few minutes ago and and asked me if I wanted to go to Shoney’s. Perfect. I think I’ll suggest the Mexican place or even try to talk her into the Quincy’s in Toccoa instead. As always, I am ready to eat. I’m the kind of person who has snacks readily available at all times. I kept all kinds of food in my desk at Aaron’s. I sometimes have crackers and candy and chips in the trunk of my car. There was once even a box full of snacks and capri suns under my bed when I was a teenager. I am a junk food junkie and will probably end up with diabetes, high LDL cholesterol and high blood pressure when I’m 40 and die of a heart attack or diabetic shock soon after. But before that I will be fat as hell and lazy.
God I hope not. That would really suck.
So as you can see this what I do when I am bored. I am not so tired now. Came home and slept from 8 until 3. I wonder what I missed besides the landscaping fairy paying us a visit. When I’m bored I ramble on about stuff that doesnt matter, not even to me. I am random yet with a good attention span. This will resemble something you are most likely to get every day from me in your inbox. A load of nonsense and mindless chatter about the ants that I found in the kitchen sink or how no matter what I do I can never get my hair to look good without a flat iron or a ton of styling products. Yes, that kind of thing.
So anyway enjoy your evening and call me tonight.
Melissa

May 15, 2008

hey

melissa roscoe says
To: George
Hey babe I hope you had a good day today and I cannot wait to see you. I kept thinking about the way you made me feel the last few days and I can’t seem to get enough of it.
So, do you still think I am all amazing and stuff or is it a passing feeling? Yep here comes my point of insecurity. I am a very confident person but there are times I really wonder about myself…
In case you were wondering, I think you are awesome. No one has made me so good in such a long time. Its sad really.
Well take care and I hope to see you tonight. You got me pretty hooked so far.
melissa

 

May 15, 2008

my phone #

melissa roscoe says
To: George
My mom called the house and said she tried my cell and it was unavailable, so I guess its due on the 15th, not 16th. You can reach me on the landline at 706-356-5527. Its almost never busy but theres no caller ID or answering machine so if you dont get me try again. I’ll have my phone back on tomorrow afternoon sometime.
melissa

May 16, 2008

hey

melissa roscoe says
To: George
Call me tonight at home 706-356-5527. couldnt get my phone turned back on. ran into an unexpected 50 dollar late fee for my registration , came up short on it . I got my taxes paid, but cant get my sticker til i pay the fee. so my fee and phone will get taken care of monday. or you can try waiting til 9 and call my cell. maybe it will work like it did last night
hope you had a good day at work and i cant wait to see you again.
melissa

May 19, 2008

No Subject

melissa roscoe says
To: George
Now more than ever I am really regretting that I quit my job. I haven’t worked in 6 weeks and I hate being broke. I have applied for hundreds of jobs and I have an impressive resume on more than one jobsite, like monster and career builder. I have come close to finding work, and now I get the advice that I ought to stop looking for work around here since me and mom are moving back into SC. Bailey isn’t going to daycare anymore. They will probably sue me for breaking the contract since I didn’t give a paid notice. But what am I supposed to do? Mom has spent half her paycheck on me and Bailey, paying my bills and buying things we need. So I get to continue being broke as hell for another month while my mom prepares to move. I really need to get my resume in to this man in Easley who offered me a job at his office. I feel sorry for little Bailey because she needs daycare. To be out of the house with other kids, learning and playing. But money is getting tight and some sacrifices have to be made, and thats 80 bucks a week down the drain because I am not working, so my child could be at home with me for free. I am so pissed at her dad. I have given him enough time and every chance in the world to change his lifestyle and do the right thing. I am about to burst his bubble and let him know that we won’t be on good terms until he gets off his ass and helps me. Its been 3 years and he has done very little to support her. I need his help now more than ever. He doesn’t care. He thinks things will work out on their own but he’s wrong. He has this dream of moving down here to be with us and he is so wrong. He doesn’t deserve another chance. I am so sick of it. At least I am trying to find work. I am actively searching everyday either online, in newspapers, and walking into places myself at hundreds of places withing 30 miles of here. Bad time of year for retail. But retail is all I know and its what I’m good at. My search will continue this week in Easley and Anderson. But its hard to go job hunting with a toddler tagging along, so most of it will have to be from home on the computer. I cried all morning thinking about how little stability Bailey has right now. Two parents who have no money to provide for her, one of which is too lazy and selfish to care. No more socializing at daycare, we don’t even know where we’ll be living a month from now. I could go crawling back to Aaron’s, but my position has been filled. All they can offer me is a CSR position for 9 bucks an hour. I made 16 and hour as a sales manager and I am not willing to work for Joan, devil boss from hell, again for any less. Such damn good money and I pissed it all away. I broke under all the pressures of my life. My split from BJ, and she finally pissed me off so bad that I didn’t ever want to come back. I was so preoccupied with problems in my personal life that I started failing at work, and I felt I was no longer worth 48k a year, so I gave up on myself and my career. I wasn’t even strong enough to keep doing it and living that way for my little girl. Yeah I suck but at least I know I can do better and am willing to try.
Anyway don’t want to vent on you anymore. Just needed someone to talk to.
My phone will be back on today. call me tonight if you feel like it.
melissa
May 28, 2008

on my mind (read this one first)

melissa roscoe says
To: George
Hey. I hope you are sleeping well. I am sitting here in a mood that really can’t describe, and I am too lazy to write in my journal right now, so here goes.
I’ve been thinking about you all day, and sort of taking all of my feelings and trying to make sense of them. I’m struggling with the task. The way you make me feel is similiar to a few situations I’ve encountered in the past, But on a different level. Remember how I told you that I am the type of person who keeps a guard up? Well that guard is starting to crumble down around me really fast and its kinda scary. But in a good way. My gut is at ease with it. With you. When I really think about it, I don’t consider you to be a flight risk. It seems like everytime I start feeling this way about someone this fast, it ends in disaster. Take John of 2002, Greg of 2003. These were both men who left me completely helpless when it came to my gaurd falling down. When it ended with those two I felt stranded in life altogether. I can’t say I was actually “in love” whith these men, but I was headed that way fast. And they weren’t and it hurt really bad. So I compare you and I to myself and them, in a sense. The feeling is the same at the start. I am completely blown away by you. I could make a list a mile long of the things that make you truly amazing to me. So I haven’t felt this way about anyone who has come along in 5 years. Not even my husband, or Bailey’s dad. The way my feelings are developing for you are similiar to those other times, only more real. Maybe its because I am more emotionally mature with my age now, or maybe my sixth sense is telling me to relax. I don’t know which. But I feel so comfortable with you and its happening so fast. The one and only thing I can’t pinpoint is what it is about YOU that surpasses anyone else EVER at this chronological stage of the relationship. Spooky. A lot of it probably has to do with the fact that when I met you, I didn’t have anyone else on my mind. I am completely over anyone from the past. I don’t miss anyone in that way. I wouldn’t have any of them back. So that means I am not on the rebound. It means you are not Mr. Right Now, or just my flavor of the month. I do, however, feel vulnerable. I don’t want to fall for you for the wrong reasons like I did with my husband. Out of pure lonliness, desperation, or convenience. Thats what scares me, the fact that I am totally wrong about my feelings. I have more good memories of you in 3 weeks than 2 years with my husband, I definitely don’t want to scare you away and I pray that you are not commitment-phobic, or think that we are getting too close too soon. Because once that happens, to either party, it is a means to an end. I feel I am taking the risk of losing you by telling you how much I really really like you, and the things I can already see for us later on down the road. I am a confident woman, but naturally I have my doubts. What it all boils down to is this: don’t let this message scare you off. I am all for taking things at a pace that is comfortable to both of us. I’m not trying to put the idea in your head that we should move in together and get married. I’m not that far gone into you yet. In the past I have been known to confuse true love with infatuation, and it took alot of failed relationships to open my eyes and realize that I didn’t know the difference. I was young and naive. I have matured into someone who has a better idea of what is right. Again, no pressure. I have picked up on some of your subtleties about how you feel about me. I guess what I need to know at this point, is what you want from me. If you are comfortable with where we stand this early on, that is great. I can tell by the way you touch me, and the way you talk to me and compliment me. These are gestures that have never been very commonplace in my love life. I feel that things are just right with us. We have lots to talk about, great conversation, lots of laughs, great sex, we spend just the right amount of time together. I can’t see myself getting sick of you or bored with you. We have a mutual respect for eachother in so many ways. Although I know it sound totally cliche, we have chemistry.
With that said, I can move on to the next chapter.

May 28, 2008

read this one second

melissa roscoe says
To: George
As mentioned in the last long ass email, I must continue with some reasons why you are different.
1. I am so intrigued by the things that you have to say about a number of topics.
2. I don’t feel like there are any topics that are off limits for us to talk about.
3. You are the type of smart person that interests me in learning things from you.
4. You are classicly romantic. Chicks dig that.
5. You make me feel beautiful, and sexy, and awesome, and all those things you say I am.
6. You have helped me get back in touch with who I really am. The me that I lost touch with while I was with my husband, who wouldn’t let me be myself. Made me doubt who I was, change to fit his lifestyle, and made me give up my own altogether.
7. You are fun for Bailey. When she remembers someone’s name, it generally means she likes the person.
8. I can tell you have a heart. Underneath it all, I would never fear dishonesty or infidelity.
9. I know I can be myself around you. No putting up fronts, say what I want to say, let you see me naked in the light of day :) .
I know I can come up with alot more, but those are the ones that mean the most to me.
Bottom line is: treat me the way you feel I deserve, and I will do the same. Things happen for a reason, and with the right amount of effort, great things can happen. Never tell me you love me if you are unsure, I can assure you that its the same coming from me. Let me know what you are ready for and what you truly want with me. You don’t have to put it into as many words as I did tonight, but if you do thats great. I just can’t feel completely comfortable with you until I know how you feel. Hopefully the feeling is mutual.
melissa

 

Jun 3, 2008

hey

melissa roscoe says
To: George
just wanted to say goodnight and i really hope i get to see you tomorrow. i’ve been up filling out job apps online…oops i forgot target. i am really looking forward to the weekend. you’ve got me wondering what you have planned. i wish i could be with you tonight. well thats sucks. anyway sleep well and i’ll talk to you tomorrow
melissa

Jun 29, 2008

hey

melissa roscoe says
To: George
damn i hate that i dont get to see you tonight. i miss you. my aunt is working at the clemson store tomorrow too, so i’ll carpool with her. her garmin says its 40 miles to clemson from pelzer. she lives right down the road from matt and heather, so its a good idea i ride with her and save my gas.
anyway i have to be up even earlier tomorrow so i can hit the road at 6 am. i hope you have a good night. maybe one night this week i’ll spend the night with you and just bring bailey with me to your house.
the cool thing is my aunt will be at my bext store in williamston too. thats awesome cause i’ll get some good training. if its not too late when i get off work tomorrow maybe i can stop by and see you for a bit. i hope so.
i’m going to get bailey’s clothes and food and stuff packed for tomorrow, then shower, staighten my hair and go to bed. i’m pissed off because my shows arent coming on tonight, so since i dont get to see you i have nothing else to look forward to either.
enjoy your day off tomorrow.

melissa roscoe says
To: George
het i’ve been trying to call you, wanna see you tonight,

Jul 9, 2008

good night

melissa roscoe says
To: George
I’m going to miss you badly for a couple of days, but thanks for coming to see me. Good night now, get some sleep.
Love,
M

Jul 10, 2008

hi love

melissa roscoe says
To: George
its really damn late and i went to bed hours ago and cant sleep. i wish you were still awake. but its ok i will get by.
right now i wish more than anything that i was lying there sleeping, wrapped in your arms. nothing in this world compares to the feeling i get as i lay there next to you, breathing you in and listening to your heart beating. i miss you so much right now. i wrote about you again tonight, but i am too tired to elaborate right now. i am ready to take another shot at getting some sleep, maybe fall asleep imaging your hands, your mouth all over my body.
you are truly outstanding and i will never let you forget it.
all my love,
M

Jul 11, 2008

hi

melissa roscoe says
To: George
I am desperately bored right now, and starving here while I wait on the food to get done. I’ve had a headache all day and I can’t stop yawning. I hope you are having a good day. I felt like talking to you so I thought I would just drop you a message instead of calling. Besides, I never run out of things to say when I’m writing or typing, so there’s no awkward silence. You know, you really do mean alot to me. I know you probably think I am not as crazy about you as you are for me, but I assure you that I am. You are all I think about most days. Even when I should be focused on something else, the thought of you still nags at the back of my brain all day. Sometimes I guess I just worry about pouring on too much mush and make you think I am some kind of flake. But after what you asked me last night, about getting too serious or not, I felt a little better. I normally don’t give a damn what anyone thinks about me, but I really do care what you think. Its important to me that you see the better side of me most of the time. I feel very close to you, as if I’ve known you for years. Anyway, there goes the oven timer. I’ll see you tonight.
Love,
M

Jul 21, 2008

here ya go

melissa roscoe says
To: George
This is what she will probably need:
State issued photo ID
Her social security card
Baby’s social security card
Baby’s birth certificate
Rent receipts for 3 months
*Copy of light bill
*Her birth certificate
*Baby’s shot record/medical records
Name of baby’s doctor, phone number, etc.
Any other paperwork she may have from Florida for the baby’s medicaid, WIC, etc. A list of any caseworkers she had may also help, in case they tell her she will have to have her case transferred to SC from Florida. These might not be required, but any and all documentation she can come up with will make the process faster and easier.
Items with a (*) may not be required.
If she is going to list John on her paperwork so she will have some kind of household income to claim, she will also need his ID and SS card, also send any paystubs he has, or he can request an earnings statement from his boss, to include tips he claims. John may have to be present for this, to sign paperwork. The process will be easier, and they will get more benefits if he goes with her.
Rent receipts: They will not accept plain notebook paper, or something that looks typed at home. You need to go buy a small receipt book from Wal-Mart, they’re like 2 bucks. Fill them out for 3 months, but skip a few in between so that the numbers are not in consecutive order. She needs to list you as her landlord, owner of the house, and if they question why the power is not in your name or hers, I dont really know what to tell her, I will think of something.
Well I think thats all. She needs to know your phone number.
If I think of anything else, I will tell her later, but that should be all she needs.
Oh yeah one last thing, I love you baby :)

Aug 26, 2008

:)

melissa roscoe says
To: George
If you are reading this, then it means I LOVE YOU.

Oct 4, 2008

hey

melissa roscoe says
To: George
i tried to call you, needed to talk to you

Oct 8, 2008

good night

melissa roscoe says
To: George
I know its really cheesy to do this, considering I just got off the phone with you, but I wanted to tell you that I love you and good night.
I know I don’t say it enough, but you really do mean so much to me and what I feel for you is unmatched by anything I’ve ever experienced before. I think about it all the time, how much happier you have made me. All I want to do is keep eachother happy. You are doing a great job at that. I know right now it seems like we are kind of in a rut, but I don’t see it that way. We have gotten settled and comfortable and it doesnt scare me a bit. We are not in a rut, we are just tired from work and bullshit we face each day…that kind of thing. I am not losing interest in you at all , don’t worry. My job just adds a lot of stress to my life. It always did before and produced a very negative effect on my marriage, which,to be truthful, contributed to its collapse. I don’t want that to happen again. I just want every day we have together to be one to remember, even if all we do is chill out in bed watching “Heroes”. I try so hard not to bring my work issues home with me. It always helps to see you greet me at the door when I get to your house.
But anyway I know you have to get ready for work and all, but I want you to know that I love you and I appreciate everything you do for me.
Ok…that was kind of a long good night, sorry
melissa

 

Oct 13, 2008

ok

melissa roscoe says
To: George
Its ok for you you to hate staind.
but i still like them

Nov 4, 2008

good night

melissa roscoe says
To: George
I am guessing you’ll be online sometime before you go to bed. I am fixing to turn in so I just wanted to tell you good night. I keep feeling worse and worse, but I am sure I’ll go to work tomorrow, and I will be there with you tomorrow night. Have fun watching the election results.