my gift to melissa

she told me she has a daily mantra…

she repeats this mantra into a mirror over and over every day.
this is her mantra

“Love is powerful.
Love is real.
My love is unconditional.
I choose to love in the face of injustice.
I choose to love in the face of fear.
I choose to love in the face of emptiness.”

she challenged me to create a mantra of my own and to repeat it every day.
this is what i came up with…

“i am a man
i have a penis
you have a mouth
put my penis in your mouth
ahhhhhhh
…
thank you.”

i dont have any respect for that guy.

ugh… whatever

I’m tired of hearing about jonquil

tired of hearing about what she did while she was with me… tired of hearing what she did after me.

those are six years of my life i would rather just forget.

no matter how many times i have said this people still don’t get it, so let me spell it out for you.
I COULD CARE LESS ABOUT WHAT JONQUIL HAS DONE, IS DOING, OR WILL DO!
jonquil is married with a kid now…
and i am with a girl for whom i care very deeply, and (to be quite honest) our relationship is infinitely greater than mine and jonquil’s could have ever hoped to have been.
Melissa is smart, sexy, strong, trustworthy, dependable, she has her own car… job… life… house.
she doesn’t use me as a crutch, she doesn’t depend on me to get through her day…
and i genuinely relish in every waking minute i get to spend with her.
i used to feel that i would never find someone who could keep up with me, who enjoyed being around me, who truly could care about me.
Melissa has proven me wrong.
she really is everything that i have ever wanted in a person.

so please… leave me the fuck alone about jonquil
i don’t have the time, the energy, or the interest to worry about her anymore.

kthxbye

everyone knows churches have sunday school… we dont need to receive emails about it.

churches are worst than spammers.

see what i mean
125 pages of city council meetings and church adverts.

one post with a weekly schedule is all you need, anything else makes you look like a pompous dick.

so in an effort to crush her dreams… and show her how much i appriciate her, i bought her a 4 gig 2g nano.

Saul William’s new album “The Inevitable Rise and Liberation of Niggy Tardust.” which was produced by Trent Reznor, is available as a free download on his website.

who is Saul Williams? sadly i cant answer that question…. so i will let Saul answer it for me.

Who I am and what I do seems to vary by mod, mood, and mode of expression. I write. I act. I perform. Most of the labels that are projected onto me are seldom how I would choose to refer to myself. Yet, regardless of how much I might dodge classification, the one label that I tote freely is that of being an artist. And it is the art of self expression that has heightened my experience on this planet and fueled my understanding of love, compassion, and humanity.

Poet.

I write poetry because it is the clearest and most direct expression of how I think. I take pride in being called a poet mostly because it feels like an ordination. I did not grow up thinking of myself as a poet, so it is an honor to be considered one. So far, I’ve wriiten four books that fall under the category of poetry. For me, they chronicle my growth as an artist, friend, lover, father, son, and individual. My goal has never truly been to become an amazing poet, rather I have worked at becoming more expressive, thoughtful, and harmoniously balanced, and courageous enough to live my life as a poem. My writings simply chronicle my journey and vision. They are the residue of the work that I’m doing on myself.

Music.

I write music because I have found that I cannot relie on other artists, or the music industry to provide the release that I need from a days work, a night out, to inspire a mood, a movement, or simply explore the unsaid in ways that are important to me. I’ve sought to become self sufficient. In music I think of myself as an explorer participating in the construction of the soundscape of the new world that is being hatched out of our dreams, hope and visions of peace and harmony… that don’t necesarily mean my shit is soft though…

Performance.

Acting, my first love as an artist, has allowed me insight into the nature of humanity. The many roles I have played, especially in theatre, exposed me to aspects of my own character before I even lived through enough experience to discover traits within myself. Through acting, I found an excuse to study everything from my own breathing habits, to the beats within a passage or poem, to the unexplored regions of my imagination. It taught me how to observe the distinction between someone who walks and leads with their head or chin versus someone who leads with their gut or groin. It grounded me in my voice and on stage and has helped me develop as a thinker and person

Through it all I would say that performance is my favorite medium as an artist. Yet, I have become very particular about the material I perform, thus, I create. Most of my training as an artist is in the field of acting which makes sense considering that all the other stuff often just feels like a role I’m playing.

Here are some credentials and schools I’ve attended:

HB Studios, NYC
The American Academy of Dramatic Arts, NYC
Morehouse College, ATL, GA. BA in Philosophy and Drama
NYU/Tisch School of the Arts, NYC. MFA Acting

These are some awards I’ve won:
Grand Jury Prize, Sundance Film Festival (Slam)
Camera D’Or at Cannes Film Festival (Slam)
Nuyorican Grand Slam Champion

Blah. Blah. Blah…

Anyway, thanks for being here.

Saul

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